Tonight as I was leaving small group I saw something weird, almost as if my eyes were open to a sliver of the truth of the spiritual world.
As I was driving home, sitting at a stop light, I looked out into the intersection and saw what looked like a fabric, and everything was woven in and out of it. I knew this to be the Lord, interwoven through all.
I then had a thought about how different everyone’s lives are, that life is so much different for each person. Specifically, what each person interacts with and faces in their lives. How in his Kingdom, we all are being lead down a unique path and being taught in special ways, simply because we can’t all be parented in the same way.
This thought lead to one other thought, that if God is woven in and through everything in life, he designs our interactions in different ways to parent each differently. This conflicts with what I’ve come to believe about God in recent years. I’ve specifically let go of the thought of sovereignty meaning that God controls everything, that if we get cancer, that God allowed it for a reason; I don’t believe this as truth. The vision I saw tonight seemed to imply a different view, maybe one that isn’t the controlling God, but also one that isn’t the other way either.
Now that I think into it more, I really haven’t seeked to find what I think of this in the first place; I’ve only believed what I was told as the truth, which is from my last pastor in a denomination that I trust for biblical insight. I haven’t really looked into what the bible says about God’s involvement in the world and life for my own eyes.
As I was driving home, I decided it would be a great next study for me. I had a couple bible verses come to mind initially, but I want to study through them to get a better holistic picture of what the bible says in context and reference to the other parts of the bible. I’ve found often times that what I’ve come to inherit as biblical beliefs from my childhood don’t have a healthy holistic biblical viewpoint and takes most things out of context.
I will keep these blog posts rolling out as I go into study more on this topic, and share any insight I’m given to the subject.
